Life is unpredicable but at least it's never dull

Journaling again...Sorry

Hello Blog reading friends! It has been a little while since I've written a real blog. I haven't had a lot to say because we haven't done exciting things and I was kind of in a little depressed funk and not in the mood to write!

So I finally made up my mind and if I change it again I give ALL of you permission to come smack me.

Here's the story...
For the last 2.5 months I have devoted my life to job hunting. Interview after interview, resume after resume! It has been absolutely MISERABLE. Even jobs that I interviewed well for were turning me down. I had one job that practically started training me and then called and said things have changed and now we aren't hiring. Add that to the fact that I thought we were about 5 seconds away from not having enough money to be alive and it's no wonder I wasn't exactly a blogging maniac.

This led to some serious confusion on my part so naturally I had to ask Heavenly Father what the heck I was doing wrong! Do I just need to be patient or am I way off track? At one point a little thought flickered - finish your dumb degree. I hoped it was just a thought and nothing more but I still entertained the idea for theory purposes only. Despite my resistance, the more I thought about it the more sense it made however, there were still issues. As you may remember one of my reasons for leaving was that I thought my major had dumb classes. If I went back those dumb classes would still need to be taken. NEXT I got a postcard from my department that said DO AN INTERNSHIP! and it was like huh I think real world experience is a brilliant alternative to repetative busy work and pointless reading. Problem solved. Then I told Ryan how stressed I was about money and he said that it was unnecessary. He explained to me where we really are financially and how substantially it differed from where I thought we were. On top of that I realized that going back would A) put my old loans on interest hold, B) make it possible for me to qualify for subsidized loans to pay off Ryan's unsubsidized ones and C) get pell grants while I still qualify.
I had gotten to the point where I was applying for cashier jobs at Ross and when we really thought about it, in the long run it would be so much better for me to have any degree (regardless of how silly the name of it sounds) than to have a year of cashiering experience under my belt. (You know since I got plenty of that done at age 16.)

The cool thing is Ryan will finish his masters at almost exactly the same time as I finish my bachelors! We aren't positive if he will get anything done while he is at home with Kaylee and taking his classes online but I've already had one offer of assistance with the wild child so hopefully it'll all work out.

Other than that the plan is still to someday open a restaurant and be able to afford a house and second child :) I may even put a small studio in the restaurant. YAY

if you don't have facebook...

... then who the heck are you? :) But since I know G ma Pullan reads this I thought I would include a link to my kaylee album on facebook for your viewing pleasure. I update this album more frequently than my blog with new Kaylee pics.

CLICK HERE TO SEE THE ALBUM!

more memory lane trips...

Today Kaylee has been impossible! Her first two teeth came in with no problem but lately she in inconsolable! I had to keep her quiet so Ryan could do his school work before going to the part time job he just picked up. Luckily watching this video distracted her from the pain long enough for him to finish.




So do you think she looks more like my baby pictures or his?

Things I Miss (I'm feeling nostalgic)

In no particular order...

•Brina, Carrie, and Sammy
-We started the lunch rotation thing and all the younger kids stole it!


•Working for MTC Media services.
-MMM All you can eat for like 3 bucks.

This is Ryan opening a white elephant gift at the Media Christmas party

•Kaylee being so tiny (and immobile).


•Black Barts


•Singing and Dancing... Preforming onstage


•Nsync!

This picture may be too awesome for you to handle and I apologize for that!

•My Wedding Day


•Chason, Brooke, and RYLIE!


•Living in Timp Gateway 211 with my lovely cousins!

I don't have any good pics with Tay :(

•Having a steady income :)


•Having no stretch marks or skin pooches on my stomach

Let's just say I definitely got rid of that shirt!

•Jordan and his random Sunday dinner comments.




That's all I can think of for now...

Just cause I like my daughter...

Little miss Kaylee is 9 months old!

She is average height but almost off the charts for how little she weighs. I think she's like her dad... forgets that she needs food.

While in CA we took her to a park with water and she LOVED it. She is all about the adventure!


She has 1 little tooth and another on it's way. She will NOT let you look at it though. I didn't even know about it till it was all the way through.

Kaylee started crawling about a month ago but if she had her way she would be running.


I have pacifiers for no reason. It's good that she can fall asleep without one no matter where we are but I still stupidly always try to get her to want a pacifier.

Kaylee really hates to be restrained in any way. The word WILD comes to mind. Car seats= Big fit!


She is very curious and never sits still. Sometimes I just like to sit there and watch her observe the world in her crazy little way.

I must be the only one

Nearly all of you, my friends and family with blogs, feel it necessary to put music on your blog. I love music and in theory it seems as though it would add a nice touch. I just wanted to throw in my opinion that it is not as nice as it seems. It's not that I hate your tastes in music, it is that I am not very good at concentrating on more than one thing at a time. I come to read the lovely posts you have written and get so distracted by your music that I almost always have to mute my computer. Let it be known that the music you have so carefully picked out is not listened to by me :)

_______'s Musical Revue & Barbeque

I'M SORRY FOR THE NOVELS!

As you all know I have been trying to come up with a plan for my life and have felt very confused and frustrated. About a week ago I went to a local studio and spent an hour and a half just talking business and learning mixing and things fromthe guy. He was very nice and while I LOVED being in his studio and watching him work I also realized the kind of dedication it requires to get to his level in a studio. He had a passion for what he was doing and he dedicated everyday of his life to that passion. I sat there thinking about how much I love being a mom and how being a studio engineer is not my only desire in life. This really threw me off because all my future plans involved studying audio.

After high school graduation I got a summer job at a restaurant called Black Bart's Musical Revue Steakhouse. I absolutely adored the place. It was a way to make money doing what I love... performing! I've taken Ryan there before and he and I have said before that if someone were to open one of those in the Provo area it would do even better than it did in Flagstaff. The other night as I was contemplateing A) what I was doing in life and B) how the heck Ryan and I were going to make ends meet without a pay check, I found myself wishing there were a Black Barts in Provo. I told Ryan I was going to go find a restaurant and pitch the idea to them so that I could work there. Ryan much preferred the idea of us opening our own. You make think it's just another crazy idea but I swear to you the whole thing hit us with such clarity it was amazing. For the first time in a long time I did not feel tormented and confused by the thought of what to do. Ideas on how we could take the Black Barts idea and build on it and mke it better just started spewing out like vomit for probably an hour! We bought a book about opening your own restaurant and starting crunching number in the morning and we think we can make this thing a success!

Here's what we have so far:
All waitors and busers have to be able to sing and dance WELL. (We plan to draw our talent from BYU and UVU... I know where to go to recruit talent at BYU) Group numbers happen every half hour and the employees sing solo or small group numbers in between. At 8 we will have our biggest production of the night to drive in traffic. Chelsie might help coreagragh and she also is willing to call in some favors from other for us. Servers wear t-shirts designed by Ryan's clothing designer Natty which we can sell to customers (like Wingers) and jeans. Western saloon feel. Southern Barbeque food (we plan to try and get Ryan's old employer to run the kitchen because they had amazing) I get to run an in house audio board and pick out the mics! :)

I can't believe we are entering the business that is so risky but I'm excited about it!

PS anyone have a good idea for a name? We've thrown out a few... Murray's being at the top but we'd love some ideas